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我想~~

我想和你去很多地方玩。。不需要出国，不需要去很远的地方，也不需要去很多天。。我只想要简简单单的旅行，有你在的地方。。

我想每3，4天就见你一次。。不需要每天见面，不需要不停的传简讯，不需要去哪里。。喜欢在你家和你一起看戏，更爱抱着你的感觉。。

我想和你去吃一些好吃的食物。。不需要华丽的餐厅，不需要昂贵的食物。。只想要和你一起吃着美味的食物，看着你吃饱的样子。。

我想和你逛街，看电影。。不需要买太多东西，不需要花太多钱。。就喜欢被你牵我的感觉，就喜欢看电影时，靠着你的肩膀。。

我想在你心里占一个位子。。不需要第一，不需要第二。。但有个位子留给我，希望你可以常常想我，更希望你很爱很爱我。。

我想我要的太多太贪心了。。 对不起噢！！其实只要你在我身边，不管去哪里，做什么事， 我已经很满足很开心了。。平凡的生活没有什么不好。。只要有你在。。只要有你怀抱。。一切都变得不平凡，因为那叫幸福。。

盲目与理智

盲目与理智 ~~

是我太盲目了吗？？
盲目的去爱一个人 ？？
盲目的去守护一个人 ？？
盲目的让他去做他想做的事 ？？
盲目到连自己很需要被守护都忘了，心里只有他。。

不知道他还记不记得他曾经说过我看起来需要被保护的样子。。
那句话深深的藏在我的心，一句很普通的话
但从来没有人对我说过那样的话。。
从小到大，不管经历什么事我都会带着面具不会让人看出我的痛
就算再痛眼泪也不轻易留下
这就是我。。
但他却看穿了我努力伪装的我。。

世界上没有不想被保护的女生。。

很多人说爱情像放风筝，让风筝在天空高飞，有时拉，有时放。。
可是我做不到， 是盲目吗？？
我希望他可以尽情地去做他想做的事。。
在他有空时回一回头，望望在后面一直跟随着他脚步的我。。
也许风筝飞高了，也许风筝飞远了。。
需要时间回来。。有时3~5天， 有时一个星期, 有时两个星期。。
我其实想当风筝的那条线， 不管风筝飞多远它还是和线连在一起。。

心里有点难过~~ 也许我害怕吧 ~~
也许害怕失去所以没有了自信！！
对我来说爱情不是用时间去衡量～～
就算我们在一起大概只有４个月，　但我清楚知道我多爱你！！

你还记得我说过你在我心里的位子吗？？
是第一。。是第一。。

Mr. Pe Boon Seng

Mr. Pe Boon Seng

He is the one who steals my heart

He is the one i love the most

He is the one i miss the most

He is the one i need the most

He is the one who holds my hands

He is the one who hugs me

He is the one, i wish he always be with me

He is the first people who comes to my mind when i awake

I miss him more than i can say ~~~

如果有一天

如果有一天
你走進我的心裡
你一定會哭
因為裡面裝滿你的點滴
如果有一天
我走進你的心裡
我也一定會哭
因為裡面找不到我的身影
你忙
忘了我需要人陪
你忙
忘了我會寂寞
你忙
忘了我在等你電話
你忙
忘了你對我的承諾
想告訴你“愛情”不是等你有空才唻珍惜的
再每個人面前我一直是很堅強，也不認輸的人，但你知道嗎
堅強背後的我心有多痛嗎，這張面具讓我戴的好累
遇到你讓我真的輸的徹底~變的好軟弱
『因為愛你，所以放手還你自由』
『因為愛你，所以不再讓你困擾』
『因為愛你，所以寧願自己難過』
因為你，我打開心防
因為你，我給了彼此一個機會
因為你，我開始有了思念
因為你，我有被疼愛的感覺
也因為你
我再度掉下眼淚
你就像一顆洋蔥
我想不斷的去了解它
於是我不停的剝下它
一片一片
而在剝的過程中
我不斷的流淚
剝到最後才發現
原來洋蔥沒有心
我沒有奢望你能給我多少你的愛
我沒有乞求你能給我多安定的情
我要的只是
你偶爾可以想想我
偶爾可以抱抱我
也偶爾讓我知道你是再乎我的
為什麼我們之間總是有一段距離
為什麼你的心不能再留一個位子給我

Good answer !!!

Hehe... Today we arrived Kampar at 3.45pm... We spent one hour to reach Kampar because of raining too heavily and we cant even see the road clearly... So it's better "biarlah lambat asalkan selamat !" haha...

I attended my Pendidikan Moral lecture for 2 and a half hour... Pendidikan Moral, a bored subject with Malay language !!! It was so weird for us when we attended the first lecture...

I and Siew Shia spent one hour at Minat, a market which located at Kampar Old Town... We bought quite a lot of things and food... When we back to home, we felt like nothing to do, felt lost direction... So, we decided to back Teluk Intan and one of the reason we decided to back hometown is recently we lacked of MONEY... haha...

When we on the way back, I sms my dear that i were on the way back... Below was our conversation :

me : hehe... dear, i'm on the way back to T.I...

Dear : y de?? then we can meet tomorrow lo...

me : sure we can meet if you miss me...

Dear : Today very busy so i no miss you, tomorrow not so busy so sure will very miss you...

me : =( even i busy i still will miss you... never mind lo... i don't wan friend with you...

Dear : Then no need friend with me, i also not friend with you... because we are in a relationship... not friendship... haha....

I love your answer !!! haha ~~~ your answer made me kept smiling in car and siew shia thought something was wrong with me.... ^^

LOVE

Love~~~
Together with boon seng for 47days...
Is happy to be with him...
Is my pleasure to be his girl friend and he really cares me a lot...
I LOVE HIM, and i don't wish to let him go...

Family~~~
My family doesn't like the one who really love me...
I know my family just want to protect me from getting hurt...
But they never know, how much i get hurt from previous love...
I'm not a small girl and i not a good girl as they think...
I been single for nearly 2 years...
Boon seng made me felt that he is the one who really trustworthy...
I don't know when he entered my life...
But i always think back the time we danced "ball dance" at Voodoo...
The time i experienced hurt and pain, none of my family members knew...
I passed through so many things, i fall down and i stand up ~~
Maybe he is not the best and not the perfect one for me...
So how, I won't regret...
I will never let him goes...
As time goes by, you all will know how he treats me...

Friends~~~
My family doesn't support me and they object to our relationship...
I hope my friends can stand at my side...
I hope my friends can support me and my decision...
I hope my friends can wish me sincerely...
Friends are so important for me...
I hope my friends will tell me that i'm making the right decision...

Boon seng~~~
I know its hard for us and for our relationship...
I know what my family said about you may made you felt bad...
I'm so sorry with that...
Please, don't let me go...
Please keep your words, protect me as you can, together with me for long long long time...
I will study hard and get good result to show my family that nothing can influence my study...
I love you....